I'm drunk!
I have orange tupperware!
Mismatching crockery!
Short hair!
A blue hat!
Smiley toast that I couldn't even eat because I was so scared because you were there and you have long hair now and its different and I think it looks nice but really you haven't changed but you had a new jumper and you made me feel really sad and I hope it was just as
awkward for you so then I got really drunk and it made it all better and I could talk to you again but I had to be drunk to do it and I showed you my teeth and I wanted to show you my tattoo so you could hate it but I didn't and I wanted to hug you but I didn't do that either and I didn't know what to do so I drank some more and encouraged people to push you off your seat because I wanted to see you hurt even if it was physical pain and it doesn't hurt as much as you hurt me and so then I drank more and I lost more of my voice and more people laughed at me and I was happy and I didn't care but I wasn't really happy because I was just drunk and I wouldn't have needed to drink if you weren't there and I should have not gone there
I should have watched a movie instead and I am sick but I don't feel that sick anymore but I can't really speak and then we ate pizza and I wanted to offer you a piece and also some vodka and I saw before how we both made that eye contact when they were talking about goon and I wondered if you were you thinking the same thing as me and I don't know but you never would have came into my life if it wasn't for goon and I don't know if this is a good thing or not but I don't care and then because I was sick I had to come home and it wasn't even nine thirty so I went on the computer and regretted deleting you as a friend so instead I decided to write this drunken slur without punctuation all about you and you will never even read it.
These are my dead polaroids. It makes me sad because right there is twenty uncaptured moments. Some of them look kind of cool though.
Why is my right ear blocked?
I have a sore throat.
My head hurts.
Oh fuck this I'm going to bed.
